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Everything, done.
I lost my love.
I lost my dignity.
I lost my friend.
I lost my hope.
My loss:
He knows that the lack of him in my life does more harm.
He left me.
And expects me to find someone else.
My dignity:
His suggestion, that I try again, lead to my deep feeling of humiliation.
I asked the man of his suggestion, but it went from bad to worse.
My Friend:
I told my only true friend.
She promised to help me through.
The morning was fine, but a sudden change happened.
It now leaves me without my friend
And then…
Now an empty heart full of…
… HATE
I felt like crying today. I was so close to.
I want to never smile again, or for a long while.
Fuck.
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Broken into four pieces
So I get rejected by one, and crushed by another.
And well, when you got shit in life and you’re on your period.
You tend to say somethings
That make people freak out
When it isn’t what you meant.
“I’m going to kill myself”
I think I should rephrase it into
“I feel like I want to kill myself”
The emotion of doing so, but not going to do it.
NOT.
NOT.
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FML
I’m broken. I’m dead. I’m done.
School, life, everything
It sucks.
So empty.
Been lied to.
Have shit.
Not happy of what I have.
I want something better.
But that’s just not fucking possible.
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So far
My father has been harassing me about my attitude toward homework/grades. It really depresses me. He doesn’t stop. And if I do do my homework after his ranting, I feel humiliated… My English teacher is rushing the class to quickly for me. I doubt that she believes in my ADD. I have a hard time grabbing concepts and the lack of free time in my week is breaking me. I will not do my homework unless I know I will have free time. And with band practice on Mondays and Wednesdays, that eats up 3 hours of the rest of my day. I want to stop time right now to do my work… I could skip practice, but that just a cowardly thing to do to deal with my problems. Toff strictly told the class, “Practice isn’t voluntary, it’s a requirement to be at practice. Just because you’re failing a class doesn’t mean you can flake out on practice.”
I’m a perfect example of that.
Right now, I have my intentions on something other than homework.
And it’s not even as important than doing homework…
….. I might do my homework before school…
Sparknote the chapters I’m be hide on the in-class book we are reading.
Work more on my up-coming essay.
Yeah, that sounds good.
But, are you allowed to skip your enrichment PAWS class to go do your schoolwork?
Wait, I have free time in art!
Genius.
Pure genius.
Ok, enough of this. I’m thinking out-loud now.
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